Yesterday, Congress finally passed the Violence Against Women Act, which initially expired in 2011.
This is the text of a sermon I preached in a class called Women's Ways of Preaching about a month ago. Its intended audience was the small group of women in my preaching section, which accounts for some of the strong language, perhaps inappropriate for use in the average congregation. I am posting it here because though it will likely never see the light of day, it needs to be heard, even and especially today.
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A reading from the Gospel according to Luke: http://bible.oremus.org/?ql=229151721
When she meets the group of drunk men on her way home from the club,
no one knows her name,
but everyone knows what she is.
She wears a tight shirt and a short skirt.
She is long legs, a pair of breasts, a waist.
Then the words come:
tramp, whore, slut.
Then the propositions:
come home with me, you know you want it.
And when she turns the other cheek out of fear for her own safety,
she walks away as fast as she can,
but the anger spirals behind her:
you’re nothing but a dirty whore, you deserve to be raped.
She is dismembered by the violence of these words and assumptions.
She is not a human,
she is not a woman,
and she does not even have a name.
This encounter is fictional, but it is true:
something like this has happened to each one of us at least once
when we decided to put on a short skirt or tight jeans
and a fitted shirt and some makeup
for an evening,
or even an afternoon or a morning—
or maybe our clothing was nowhere near revealing at all.
Maybe we have not all received such graphic jeers,
but we know what it is like to be reduced to breasts, legs, a vagina—
dismembered and dehumanized.
This is also the cultural setting in the gospel of Luke
where we find Jesus today,
reclining at a symposium with powerful men,
interrupted by “a woman of the city, who was a sinner.”
This is not an evening when Jesus is multiplying loaves and fishes,
sharing a meal with those who have virtually nothing.
Instead, we can imagine a wealth of elegant food,
fit for a group of people with considerable social standing,
gathered to discuss the finer, more esoteric points of theology
with the curiosity du jour:
Jesus, a bright, if eccentric, prophet.
As with any culture of wealth, education, and power,
the markings of this world are material:
good food, fine wine, nuanced conversation,
an exclusively male space,
and the reclining posture of the Romans,
the occupying force of political and cultural hegemony.
Even Jesus seems to be there to collaborate
rather than to subvert.
In the midst of all of this, a woman shows up to disrupt the proceedings—
and what is worse, she seems to have a history with Jesus,
who doesn’t bat an eye at her presence.
Her gender shatters the masculine sphere of the Pharisees’ symposium.
But it is not her gender that the Pharisees notice first:
rather, they see her like societies have often seen women
for the past two thousand years.
She is breasts, hips, vagina, and legs;
she is a sex organ and its accessories.
She is an object.
She is dismembered in the silent, motionless violence of their gaze.
“If this man were a prophet,”
says the Pharisee who invited Jesus, muttering under his breath,
“he would have known who and what kind of woman this is
who is touching him—that she is… a sinner.”
I don’t know about you,
but the delicacy and squeamishness of the word “sinner”
makes me cringe.
We know what he really means:
she’s a slut.
She makes her living by selling her body,
and to the culture around her,
she becomes no more than a collection of organs and orifices.
How did they know she was a sex worker?
Had some of the Pharisees been her clients?
Was it her clothes, her long sensual hair,
the jar of expensive perfumed oil she carried?
Perhaps you have seen the image below recently,
a photograph by college freshman Rosea Lake.
In it we see another woman who has been dismembered—
she is literally nothing more than a pair of legs.
Skirt lengths are inked onto her skin,
and none of the labels are flattering:
the longer lengths imply she has no sexuality of her own
and the shorter ones suggest an inappropriate hypersexuality,
all of which is her own fault.
The top four marks are the most chilling:
provocative, asking for it, slut, whore.
It is the label “asking for it” that makes my blood run cold
with the violence and relevance of its suggestion
that women ask for violence, for harassment, for rape, and for figurative dismemberment
because of what they wear, where they go, and what they do.
The unnamed, dismembered woman,
weeping quietly over Jesus’ feet,
is “asking for it,” because of who and what she is –
or perhaps only because she guilty of being female
in a masculine, sexualized society.
If we could hear her speak,
maybe her testimony would be similar to that of contemporary adult film star Stoya,
another “sinner” of the sexual variety,
who wrote about her own experiences with harassment and sexualized dismemberment.
After recounting her experiences with her harassers, Stoya writes:
"They say that they never do this, as though I've somehow driven them to inappropriate behavior and deserve it. They say they're just having fun…
Before you try to tell me that it's because I take my clothes off for a living, let me tell you that this started way before I was 18."
Tragically, so many of us experience dis-memberment today,
reduction to a set of physical parts.
While it affects women with particular violence,
men are not immune from harassment, assault, or rape.
Dis-memberment takes other forms as well.
Migrant workers are reduced to hands, arms, and backs,
barely a step above machine
as they work for miniscule wages
in physically dangerous conditions.
Racial and ethnic minorities suffer dismemberment because of their own bodies:
some find themselves reduced to cartoonishly slanted eyes
or are called “brown” or even “yellow” or “red” because of their skin color,
as though they are crayons.
The “Mammy” and “Sambo” archetypes linger in society’s consciousness,
insidiously reducing African Americans to their hair, lips, skin, or behavior.
As members of our culture, we still find ourselves complicit in dis-memberment:
as much as we recoil in horror at Rosea Lake’s photograph,
we see our own perceptions in it,
for we, too, are prone to judge women
who leave the house in short skirts
or who have lengthy histories of sexual conquests
before we can stop ourselves.
What, then, is the hope of re-memberment
for the anonymous sex worker at Jesus’s feet?
What is the hope of re-memberment for anyone,
female or male,
who has been reduced to a set of component parts?
For dismemberment appears to come hand-in-hand with silence:
aside from quiet weeping,
we never hear this woman’s voice.
As the Pharisees prepare to throw her out, however,
Jesus fills the void left by her absent voice,
returning agency to her by proxy.
“Simon,” he says, quietly, “I have something to say to you.”
Then, the hush: the electricity in the room
as Jesus weaves the story of the debtors and their generous creditor.
Tiny sparks fly from his words:
“Do you see this woman?”
And then, perhaps for the first time,
the men in the room see a human being,
a whole woman,
instead of a "sinner."
They see someone in need of kindness and mercy,
someone who has her own dignity and integrity,
someone who occupies a more privileged position
than the men reclining with this itinerant prophet.
Do you see this woman?
Yes. Yes, they see her. Yes, WE see her.
Her dangerous, scandalous sexuality
has become the tender, intimate sensuality
by which she washes and anoints Jesus with her very body,
with her tears and her hair and the scented oil she saves for her clients.
She has performed the ultimate act of hospitality
and done what the Pharisees never thought to do—
she has sought Christ in this strange preacher and recognized him,
and she overflows with gratitude
such that she will follow him to the ends of the earth –
this wonderful man who refuses to see her as a dismembered object,
who sees her as a human, a beloved child of God,
valuable and valued,
a person with her own voice and aspirations.
Condemned by her society for a multitude of sins,
she receives forgiveness from Jesus.
When she was nothing but her culture’s moral scapegoat,
Jesus gathered her hips and vagina and breasts
and joined them again to her feet, her spine, her mind,
her heart, her lungs, her voice,
her hopes, her dreams,
forging her anew.
So she follows him, serving him with her heart and mind and body,
all that she has:
weeping, anointing, worshiping.
She has become like a bowl repaired by kintsugi,
the Japanese art of mending broken ceramic with gold.
With the priceless gift of Jesus’s forgiveness
binding her together like a golden seam
for the first time in her life,
she shines.
Jesus forgives the woman at his feet,
still nameless,
but now whole and re-voiced.
He blesses her.
In just such a way,
Jesus offers us a new way
to re-member the dis-membered around us.
We, too, can offer forgiveness where society and culture condemn;
we, too, can take a second look
to recognize people as more than a collection of parts.
Christ calls us to follow him in the way of peace and justice,
a call that does not end
when we remove the robe after worship or the clerical collar at the end of the day,
when we lock the office door or close the textbook.
Christ calls us to re-member one another,
day after day,
even if our social matrix routinely tears us apart.
When we recognize a unified whole in the pieces of someone’s life,
Christ begins to forge the bright gold
that will bind the fragments together,
rendering us all precious, valuable, beloved.
This is where Christ dwells:
shining in our fractures,
blessing us as we wind our hair around his feet,
sharing the tender intimacy of forgiveness and inclusion
over and over again
in a space of wholeness,
safe at last.
A M E N
(The image, "Judgments," was created by Rosea Lake and is available here with her comments: http://roseaposey.tumblr.com/post/39795409283/judgments)
Friday, March 1, 2013
Friday, November 2, 2012
Unmaking
It is easy to think of knitting as a craft of making, of generating a new thing where
there was nothing before, creating soft order and careful structure out of the
chaos of a skein. These days I am finding myself drawn increasingly back toward
the source of all that making. I have been picking up my drop spindle for the
first time in years to feel the tender strength of light and airy wool twisting
into tight yarn. I idly browse the internet for dyeing kits in my spare time
and contemplate the risk they may pose to my stove and my cookware. How long
will it be before I am keeping sheep, the ultimate source of wool, in the
parking lot behind my apartment?
The process of creation taking place in the craft of
knitting is far from effortless. When you hold a fresh skein in your hands and
prepare to wind it into a ball, anything is possible. But as soon as you cut
the ties and slip the long skein around the back of a chair as a makeshift
swift, beginning to wind and wind, you start to see the imperfections. Maybe the
skein hasn’t been tied properly, so tangles assert themselves. Maybe the dyeing
is inconsistent. Maybe your hand-wound ball is shaped more like a lumpy potato
than a round grapefruit. And then you start knitting. Mistakes creep into your
stitching. You lose patience with your progress. You start adapting the pattern
on the fly.
And sometimes… well, sometimes you make it nearly all the
way through a project, feeling so proud of yourself, and then you discover that
it is all wrong.
Three years ago I bought six hundred yards of beautiful
goldenrod-colored wool. I planned to make a fall jacket with it. I treasured
the potential in this beautiful yarn and admired the way it looked in the sun.
Then I knitted the back panel and one of the side panels of the jacket, plowing
eagerly ahead. I was almost ready to begin the second panel when I discovered
two things: first, my estimation of the correct size was off, and second, I had
completely misinterpreted the pattern for the side panel. All that work:
useless.
I stuffed the jacket pieces in a bag and buried them under
the rest of my yarn stash. There they sat, surfacing occasionally as I moved to
a new apartment, dug through yarn to find needles, and transferred my stash to
a shelf. I felt guilty every time I saw them: guilty for failing my beautiful
yarn, ashamed that I had given up, embarrassed that I had made such large
errors in the first place.
There’s nothing quite like the frustration and shame you
feel when your beautiful (and expensive) yarn turns out to have become the most
useless thing you could have made – and after hours of hand-aching work, no
less. You will be reminded of your own mistakes. The failed garment will haunt
you like a ghost in the back of your closet. Three days ago I decided I had had
enough of this. I recently accepted that my body simply isn’t the same after a
few years of graduate school and various health issues as it was three years
ago. This made it easier to pull out the sweater again, to face facts.
But I did not take it out to finish it. I took it out to unravel
it. After all, I had only purchased enough yarn to make a size small.
As embarrassing it is to screw up a garment, it is an
implicit violation of knitting ethics to discard it. Rather than waste hundreds
of yards of perfectly good yarn that did nothing wrong, most knitters will opt
to rip out their poorly crafted work. Many knitters call this “frogging,” from
“rip it, rip it,” an analogue to “ribbit.” Three days ago I started frogging
that ill-fated fall jacket, and then I started making a scarf patterned with
stitched stars from the fresh remnants.
There are many lessons in yarn, but this is one of the most
difficult: that sometimes the penultimate stage of creation is the unmaking of your
own labor. The process of unmaking proceeds with a bittersweet kind of love,
and with more than a little wonder and grief at how easily and quickly the
stitches unravel.
But unmaking lays the groundwork for the beautiful work to
come. When the whole arc of the creative process can be seen in full,
meaningful creation is impossible without unmaking. It is humbling to recognize
that the time has come to unmake one’s own work, but it is a joy to use the
resultant yarn – crimped though it may be from languishing in a flawed garment
– in a new form. Unmaking reclaims the liberty and potential of a brand-new skein.
I have more confidence in this star-patterned scarf than I
ever had in the fall jacket, which now exists only in a few plump balls of
yarn. It grows inch after inch from my needles, flourishing thanks to every
stitch unmade.
Wednesday, August 29, 2012
Last first things
The tag on my teabag is preaching to me. The season of last first things has begun.
This is my last first day of school, excluding my Lutheran seminary residency, for the foreseeable future. I have no idea where I will be living or working at this time next year. I managed to postpone my departure from Yale by three more years when I graduated the first time by choosing to study at Yale Divinity School. This time, however, there will be no second chances, no saving things to do next fall, no wandering in the woods of East Rock in a year, no hoping I'll achieve more or study harder or perform better next time around. It is time to assemble my New Haven and Yale bucket list and get to work, time to read every obscure book I'll never be able to locate outside the library of a major research university, time to allot my time to the things that matter most, time to commit fully.
"Love what is ahead by loving what has come before," says my tea tag. I step into this year while remembering six other New Haven autumns, the long bright fall lasting well into November; six other years of watching afternoon sunlight move across my desk as I read and write; six other years of music and of friends who have come and gone (and some who have stayed). When I returned to New Haven after a week away recently, it felt like coming home -- solidly coming home, not the tenuous homecoming of returning to a temporary living arrangement -- for the first time. Six years will do that to you, it seems.
So I will do what I can to love what is ahead by loving and honoring what came before. I know I will hardly be still at all this semester, but when I pause to catch my breath, I will remember the six years that have shaped me. May this bittersweet season of last first things be a blessing.
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
Grit to Gift
Grit to gift
Strange how grit
should turn to gift,
and yet,
it is so.
Some resurrections
are slow:
not easily won
but worked
from difficult stone.
Can it be I come to love
the taste of bitterness? --
the sharp, sweet smell
of the real,
against which
piety fails.
--Katherine Charnley
I have just finished eleven weeks of work as a chaplain in a trauma hospital, and it was not enough.
It is strange to say this about a job that required me to work upwards of sixty hours per week, stranger still when that job required me to work for twenty-four hours straight once each week. It borders on insanity to say this about a job that demanded the emotional equivalent of marathon endurance as I moved from a death to a trauma to an emergency baptism to a new cancer diagnosis, all within a few hours. To miss this job when it came hand-in-hand with the heavy emotional work of self-reflection -- forcing me to face the parts of myself I'd sooner ignore -- is truly madness. But there it is: eleven weeks of chaplaincy in a level I trauma hospital were not enough for me.
I took a second unit of clinical pastoral education (CPE) this summer in order to test myself, to see if I might (or might not) really be called to chaplaincy as a part of my pastoral vocation. During the eleven short weeks of the intensive CPE internship, the hospital threw nearly every possible crisis my way, as I knew it would. It is impossible to describe everything I saw and did: some of it is too tender to repeat to those unprepared to hear it, and every call was filled with the intimacy and delicacy of sacred space. In brief, I was called to serve as part of the trauma team on call, where I saw the bloody and grief-filled aftermath of accidents and crimes; to support families as they chose to remove life support from their loved ones; to help the ill and dying say goodbye to those they loved; to baptize and name critically ill babies; to walk the long journey of stem cell transplants with leukemia patients; to bear witness to the stories of those with sickle cell anemia; to embrace many people as they wept; to offer blessing after blessing after blessing in a hospital where the balance of life and death seems deeply unfair much more often than it seems just.
Yet amid all of this, I consider myself abundantly blessed.
Katherine Charnley's poem "Grit to gift" helped to orient me for the past weeks. The blessing of hospital chaplaincy is not easily won at all. I can remember a particularly difficult afternoon on call when I returned to the office feeling like the hospital was so rough and unfair that it was the emotional equivalent of sandpaper, removing the top layer of my skin. Yet to offer care in such a place as a hospital is to be deeply in touch with the real, to encounter God's baffling presence at the heart of grief and suffering. For now, I find that I encounter God and the Holy with more immediacy and power as a hospital chaplain than I do anywhere else. The hospital is my sanctuary, "the sharp, sweet smell/of the real/against which/piety fails," even when the only odors in the air are blood and antiseptic and grief.
As the difficulty of the grit continues to transform into gift, I am able to say that I would repeat these eleven weeks of chaplaincy in a trauma hospital in a heartbeat -- and mean it with my whole self.
Sunday, April 29, 2012
She Restores My Soul
Today is called "Good Shepherd Sunday" in some churches; according to the lectionary, the twenty-third psalm is among the readings for the day.
Glory be to our Mother and Daughter and to the Holy of Holies...
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